Did you see me?

I mean really see me? Was I even human to you?

Don't feel pressured, heaven forbid I wouldn't want you to have to look into your dark soul for the answer. 

I wonder how its humanly possible for someone to break someone else into so many pieces and still feel nothing. 

You found me all weak and helpless like an injured animal. You picked me up and tore my limbs off and  beat me senseless. 

I felt nothing but empty space,I was floating above us looking down. 

But still you didn't have an ounce of remorse. Even after you just left my body crying out in pain. 

I'm still wondering if it was me.....if not...did she survive?

Long time no see

So turns out I haven't blogged in what seems like years...oh wait it has been.

My life took unexpected turns and I basically shut myself off trying to deal with things.

I've grown so much as a person that its hard to describe. I feel like emotionally I've far surpassed many people I know. It sounds like I'm being condescending but I'm not. It's funny how people who think they know you actually know NOTHING about you or what you've been through.

I know what I've been through and I know for a fact that your average person wouldn't even know what it's like to understand those things let alone live with them.

Sometimes I see myself and wonder how I managed to stay alive both physically & mentally. But turns out I am a strong woman and I won't let these things beat me.